Annoyed at people being around me when I'm naked. I was laying on my bed and turned towards a guy and he was visibly uncomfortable and I said "Well, you are in my room." A woman behind me then said "Well close your windows then, nobody wants to see that."
INSIGHT - I often dream about being naked in public. This is a common theme in dreams, often resulting from feeling ill-prepared or something similar. Prior to this dream no one had remarked directly on my nakedness, and I used to hope no one was noticing but lately I've come to believe they're all just being polite. I think all these dreams represent a feeling of unworthiness, that friends talk about me to their wives and want to try to help me, which is humiliating and unnecessary. My only defense is to pretend everything's fine (that I do have clothes on) and I don't need help. As Bret Easton Ellis would say, I've got to appear normal. Possible trigger - last night my buddy Spooner tried to pick up the whole bar tab and apologized for us not hanging out more frequently.
Friday, October 31, 2014
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Friday, October 17, 2014
Dreamed was mad at my brother. I placed my shoes in a pile of other shoes and he told me don't leave my shoes there. He had been sniping at me for a long time, and I said it looked like this was a place people were putting their shoes. I got so angry I was filled with rage when I woke up and now am too angry to go back to sleep.
INSIGHT - Why am I so angry at my brother? (That's a long story.) I found out if I bring my dog to our parents' house for Christmas he won't come because he hates animals. Last time I boarded Rory they had to tranquilize him because he kept crying that I had left him. (He's a rescue with abandonment issues.) I think I'm mad at my brother for making me choose between him and my dog, because I have to choose him.
INSIGHT - Why am I so angry at my brother? (That's a long story.) I found out if I bring my dog to our parents' house for Christmas he won't come because he hates animals. Last time I boarded Rory they had to tranquilize him because he kept crying that I had left him. (He's a rescue with abandonment issues.) I think I'm mad at my brother for making me choose between him and my dog, because I have to choose him.
Monday, October 27, 2014
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Colin Kaepernick is attempting a game-winning drive and his gay lover Billy Crystal runs out onto the field to kiss him for luck. I get out my phone and start to post to Facebook "I hope they do to Billy Crystal what they would do to me if I ran onto the field," but am interrupted by a phone call from my dental hygienist reminding me of an appointment tomorrow, saying "You won't have to move in with Amy" because they got a new office. I'm outside and it's dark and a guy walks menacingly down the street and I worry he's going to mug me for my phone. I'm very self-conscious that the phone is lighting up my face so he can see me.
INSIGHT - San Francisco had just beat St. Louis on Monday Night Football to make me lose a bet - Kaepernick seemed unstoppable despite only a 4.5 point spread. I think the menacing man was "The Man," Mr. PC, the masses. I wanted to speak my mind but was afraid of being singled out (phone lighting my face) for backlash for being homophobic when really all I want is equality. (Great choice for my first blog entry then. For the record I am pro-gay rights.) I was stopped from posting my statement on FB/Twitter (in my dream they were the same) by my dental hygienist, who represents responsibility and smart thinking. The only Amy I know is (redacted), a Creek Indian in Atmore (I also am Creek). Perhaps this is something to do with not being on the tribal health care plan (not living on the reservation). The medical center down the street from my house is expanding, that might be where the idea of new medical offices came from.
By the way, this first post is a good opportunity for me to state some of my beliefs about dream analysis. Although I welcome any input, I believe the person most qualified to analyze a dream is the dreamer himself, since he knows best the connotations he brings into and out of a dream. That said, there are a few universal themes of which I am aware, and when I think of these I will include them in any insights. Also it should be stated I have no reason to believe Colin Kaepernick is gay, but I wouldn't be surprised about Billy Crystal.
INSIGHT - San Francisco had just beat St. Louis on Monday Night Football to make me lose a bet - Kaepernick seemed unstoppable despite only a 4.5 point spread. I think the menacing man was "The Man," Mr. PC, the masses. I wanted to speak my mind but was afraid of being singled out (phone lighting my face) for backlash for being homophobic when really all I want is equality. (Great choice for my first blog entry then. For the record I am pro-gay rights.) I was stopped from posting my statement on FB/Twitter (in my dream they were the same) by my dental hygienist, who represents responsibility and smart thinking. The only Amy I know is (redacted), a Creek Indian in Atmore (I also am Creek). Perhaps this is something to do with not being on the tribal health care plan (not living on the reservation). The medical center down the street from my house is expanding, that might be where the idea of new medical offices came from.
By the way, this first post is a good opportunity for me to state some of my beliefs about dream analysis. Although I welcome any input, I believe the person most qualified to analyze a dream is the dreamer himself, since he knows best the connotations he brings into and out of a dream. That said, there are a few universal themes of which I am aware, and when I think of these I will include them in any insights. Also it should be stated I have no reason to believe Colin Kaepernick is gay, but I wouldn't be surprised about Billy Crystal.
What the hell is this?
Hi! My friends call me Larry, and I am an introspective extrovert.
As part of the process towards conscious dreaming I have begun to keep a dream diary. I have now decided to post the entries online, because why the hell not. It will be an experiment in honesty - while everything you read will be 100% honest, I'm not yet sure how much I will post. The dreams posted will be anywhere from a few days to a couple of weeks prior to the post, partly to give myself time for some insight but mostly because the decision to blog came a couple of weeks after the decision to keep the diary. If I name names you can assume the names are fake.
The diary is a notebook I keep on my bedside table, and when I wake up from a dream I write it down before going back to sleep or getting on with my day. I intend to post each entry exactly as written, so niceties like proper grammar may be forsaken. My idea as it stands is to use italics for everything in the "dream world," and normal characters for any insight I include after waking. The insight comes from that morning or soon after, while anything in bold is something I'm writing at the time of the blog post. Also, I frequently wake with a persistent song in my head that can't be explained by having heard it the night before or recently, so if that happens I will include it as the music of the dream. And one last thing, I always go to bed after midnight so the date given is the early morning the dream happened, the day after the previous night, so to speak. Yeah, that's the kind of clarity I'm seeking here.
So I think that about covers the ground rules, just one caveat - some of the dreams may be explicit or otherwise offensive. I intend to go into as much detail as I remember from the dream, so my only self-censorship will be whether or not I post the dream at all. If I post it, it's unedited. My only request is that the reader try not to make judgments on my character based on dreams - I can't help my subconscious. That said, let's have a look inside my mind, shall we?
As part of the process towards conscious dreaming I have begun to keep a dream diary. I have now decided to post the entries online, because why the hell not. It will be an experiment in honesty - while everything you read will be 100% honest, I'm not yet sure how much I will post. The dreams posted will be anywhere from a few days to a couple of weeks prior to the post, partly to give myself time for some insight but mostly because the decision to blog came a couple of weeks after the decision to keep the diary. If I name names you can assume the names are fake.
The diary is a notebook I keep on my bedside table, and when I wake up from a dream I write it down before going back to sleep or getting on with my day. I intend to post each entry exactly as written, so niceties like proper grammar may be forsaken. My idea as it stands is to use italics for everything in the "dream world," and normal characters for any insight I include after waking. The insight comes from that morning or soon after, while anything in bold is something I'm writing at the time of the blog post. Also, I frequently wake with a persistent song in my head that can't be explained by having heard it the night before or recently, so if that happens I will include it as the music of the dream. And one last thing, I always go to bed after midnight so the date given is the early morning the dream happened, the day after the previous night, so to speak. Yeah, that's the kind of clarity I'm seeking here.
So I think that about covers the ground rules, just one caveat - some of the dreams may be explicit or otherwise offensive. I intend to go into as much detail as I remember from the dream, so my only self-censorship will be whether or not I post the dream at all. If I post it, it's unedited. My only request is that the reader try not to make judgments on my character based on dreams - I can't help my subconscious. That said, let's have a look inside my mind, shall we?
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